I search for a trigger. Something that in some tangible way makes sense of the situation I find myself in now. A repeated cinematic trope, a snippet of melodramatic reporting on the radio, a desktop landscape repeated in the background of lectures and shared screens. I am aware it has influenced me either consciously or unconsciously.
Once located, she keeps it just inside her peripheral vision so it can’t be in focus. Feeling uncomfortable with this presence she has conjured she decides to appropriate it, reverse engineer it, re-enact it, inhabit it.
Repeating the process and charting her contingent relationship to it as she shifts it into a new form. Cribbing from herself and others in a process of layering and associative linking to examine and remediate that which is mediated to us.